Asalamualikum.

I am completely confused, stressed and frustrated. I am 26 years old and I come from non-Muslim background and I met a Muslim guy at my work place and then he became my boyfriend. My boyfriend was guiding me to Islam and it took so long time(nearly 2 yrs to understand the beauty of islam) and then I became Muslim. We don't work in same place any longer. In the past 3.5 years we both have stayed together in same house and we have crossed our limits.

In the last year we both have informed our parents and none of our parents accepted us. My family doesn't know that I have converted and still believe that I will change my mind and marry the guy they show me. At his house they don't like me since I am a convert and I am working. As of now I am staying alone and his mother got scared that he might marry me without her knowledge, hence now she has come down and staying with him.

My parents stopped talking to me since I am not listening to them. Lots of arguments is going on between myself and my parents. I almost lost my parents. My parents tell me to elope and get married and they don't want me stay unmarried cause they cannot answer this society why I am still single? On his side he is staying with mother and brothers (his dad expired 10 yrs ago). But I doubt they will ever accept me. He is not willing to do court marriage also.

I am feeling very lonely these days, sometime  he is not able to pickup my calls. He is either not willing to come out or he is getting scared to spend time with me. I understand that now  he is staying with his family and it won't be the same as earlier. I feel I have been rejected by him. At least I will find comfort If I get married to him through anyways. I have scarified whatever I had for him. I left my parents; left all my friends for him; I left my religion(I did that  for my sake); I left the old ways of dressing; I stopped speaking or mingling with Non-Mahram Mens; I have changed to how a Muslim girl should be. Now  I have no one except Allah. My boyfriend is telling me wait and I can see this is going nowhere. This loneliness is killing me.

Sometimes out of my frustration I blame my boyfriend I lost my virginity because of him. This relationship is only known to both parents and only one common friend. I want to say the world I have become Muslim but my boyfriend stops me and tells me to wait (If I say I have converted, people from my workplace can easily predict who am in relationship with). Whenever he rejects my calls or refuses to come out with me, I am getting hurt and feel that nobody is there. I have become so dependent of him and I am so used to of him.I thought of shifting to some place (like women's hostel) but those places are tough for me to do salah. Hence I choose to be alone. I m ready to do anything to convince his family but they are not ready to accept me. At least I wish my boyfriend marries me without their consent, this is also not happening. Due to this relationship all of us are in pain(like myself, my boyfriend, my family and his family).

Is there any solution for this?

Aslve.