My husband doesn’t have a white collar job, I feel ashamed sometimes.
I am a 29 year old female with two daughters mashAllah! I also have a loving husband who really does care for me.
Yet at times, I fall under severe depression, undergoing feelings which I cannot share with anyone. Everyone in my family is highly educated, comprising of doctors, engineers, CA's etc however certain situations arose that I got married to a guy who is not too highly qualified.
And now here in the west, he doesn't have a white collar job like the rest of my family. I know I sound soooo materialistic but I can't help but feel ashamed sometimes. I feel like my family, my relatives look at me differently now because of my changed social status.
I have tried to convince my husband to get an education here in the west so that he may receive some good job offers in the future, but now with a family and bills to pay, he doesn't have the time off from earning money. Since he works on weekends as well, we never get a chance to go on holidays, on long weekends or any other time.I don't fight with my husband about these things at all. I am understanding and never make demands he can't fulfill.
I just keep quiet about all these feelings that go on and on inside of me. But i know that I am very depressed. I try to keep myself busy with my chores and my children but there are times when I cant help it.
My own brother who was very close to me even after I got married has now changed. He got married to a girl again whose family is very educated and since then he looks at me differently as well.
Sometimes because of these things, I just want out from my marriage but I know I am wrong to think this way. I pray to Allah to somehow change my situation and whether you have an answer for me or not, please do pray for me.
Tagged as: depression, financial status, Marriage, social status