Hurting and forced to accept things in my married life
I am married for 2 years already. As I had mention on my earlier post I got married to my husband without knowing that he is married. After our wedding few weeks later I learned about his marriage, but he kept me on dark side for so long. Letting me believe that their divorce 2x and just needed the last in the court.
For 1 yr and 6 months I waited for him to came out from jail due to financial problem from his business. During those times for 5 months he make me believed that the police people brought him to court for his divorce and he had the papers. then 3 month before he came out of jail then he told me he lied to me that his not yet divorce and his still communicating with his ex. But he promised me he will divorce her once he's out.
Then when he came out things become more complicated the hurtful. I learned that he had promised his ex-wife the he will bring her back and will come straight to her once his out, same thing he promised me. Although he came straight to me that time. He had lied so many things about his marriage, that I feel like I have the right to know.
He loves me, and he doesn't want me to leave him, so he decided to leave his 1st wife, which he always promised me before. Then the wife make a complain and make stories in the court that for 5 years he didn't make a house for her, that he left her, just a story that she make to make the case worst. Too much drama and problems she's making. Me and my husband is fighting because of her. I always start because of jealousy and his lies from before is eating my brain. I cannot trust him when it comes to his ex. Plus when their talking I cannot understand their language. Many things he had hidden from me. And his reason was, because he doesn't want me to get hurt or so i will not be upset. But worst thing he told me, that it's not my business whether he will take her back or not.
And today was their court, he told his 1st wife that he will take a house for her and will not divorce her, and that they will start a life again. And even though he will not leave me he will keep us both, it's hurting me and breaking my heart so much. I allowed him to get a house for her so she will not complain but he promised me he will not go to her house anytime. All his promises has been broken. I feel like that their playing with me. My heart is totally broken but I cannot complain. Last night he told me that if he will not divorce her i cannot do anything, just shut my mouth and be quite. Is this really the Islamic way of life? He also use his cousin as an example.
Now I just want to run away from all of this, I want to die so I will not get hurt any more. I have no one this foreign country, my family was in our country and no ones that I can talked with. My heart is full of pain. Please give me some words of encouragement to continue with this life. I want to give up already.
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