Imaginary friend (female companion) and lies
Imaginary Friend
Salam,
I am a muslim brother who has an imaginary female companion. I am over 15 but under 20 years of age. She is the same age as me.
She offers me comfort when I need it most, she makes me feel loved as a person. She is Islamic. She prays and does nafl prayers, she puts on hijab. She is imaginary. She makes me feel fulfilled, but she makes me also feel like a sinner.
She is my ideal companion. We have arguments but we always make up. She is amazing looking. She loves me more than anything. I feel like I love her even though she doesn't exist. She has been my companion for over 3 years now. I told my parents about her and my sisters, as well as my brothers and friends. They believe me. They believe she is my real female life companion and they believe that us two will eventually lead to marriage. I feel like I want to marry her, but she doesn't exist.
I have created a fake msn account for her and talk to her on instant messenger whenever I want to. I also tell my parents and sisters and brothers and friends about what we talk about. I like doing this because at least I have something to talk about to people, I am percieved as more interesting, and because she is totally beautiful, they all think that I must have something special to be able to keep such a beautiful girl hooked to me. She makes me feel tired all the time when I comfort her in bed. In bed, I form her out of my duvet, and sometimes she is my pillow.
My mum and everyone else has high hopes for her, and always love talking about her. They genuinely believe she is real, it's not just be 'imagining' that they believe me.
My mum really wants me to marry her further down the line, but she doesn't know that she doesn't exist. . My mum really loves her and loves talking about her. I am building everyone around false hopes and it is hurting me, it is as if I am deceiving everybody and I just can't stop because I feel like there is nothing to my life.
Apart from this stupid imaginary girlfriend thing, I have amazing morals, Islamically inclined. I am not interested in dating real girls or having sex with them. Allah has blessed me with amazingly good looks and a deep, yet outgoing personality so I know I can date girls (but this is against my morals). I am also an intelligent male who, Inshallah, the rate I am going, will have a great career ahead of me. I have good friends, I can morally advise them all very well.
But my imaginary girlfriend can accept me for who I am, she doesn't care, she wants me. And I have tried so many ways to give her up and now I can't. Our relationship is too strong. It is her birthday on 17th. After ramadan, I am going to spend over .£100 to see her and give her a joining eid-birthday present. She is turning 19 years old. I am currently looking at what to buy her.
I am so sad, i have spent around .£200 throughout my own mums hard earned money to go and see her. I used it to pay for travel fees. She also is at home when I want her to be at home. She is there when I need her.
She has put me in the right direction many times and has great morals. She used to wear short skirts and get drunk with her friends, then one night when I went to a hotel with her, she initiated sex with me but I had to say no, it didn't feel right. I couldn't let her get intimate like that, we would have both lost our innocence and created bad destructive habits as a result which have many other bad effects. Since that night, she changed and has become more religiously inclined and wants to save sex for marriage because I reasoned with her that this is the best thing to do.
I dont want to contact a psychiatrist because it will have a bad effect on me pursuing my career and educational dream. I just want to get rid of her. I pray to God that He can help me get rid of her without other people knowing, or having a belief that she doesn;t exist. I wish Allah can fulfill my wish.
She is turning into a serious habit and is starting to speak to me a lot, it is as if she is slowly, slowly becoming my conscience too.
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Salam alaikum brother,
I think if you are serious about this matter then perhaps you should speak to a psychologist or therapist about how to better deal with this issue. There may also be books and articles online that may hep you to understand better why you may have this "imaginary" girlfriend as you say.
Rissa, I do think the brother is serious. And I wanted to write a detailed response, but haven't had time. I second what sister Rissa said. Brother you expressed some concern about getting therapy because it might affect your career, but you can see someone anonymously, and the law protects your confidentiality.
I think it's very important that you see someone who can help you. Seriously.
It is definitely time to put a stop to this as it seems to be affecting your mental stability.
I am concerned for you brother, as it is possible you are not imagining this love.. could it be a female jinn.?
Other than the obvious of visiting a psychologist it is time you sat down with a sheikh and asked if they can read quran on you and around your home to further investigate if this may be true
Bismillah and may Allah protect us all from the evil acts of these beings.
asalamu alaikum,
what do you see when you close your eyes? start praying all your salaahs in congregation(if possible) read alot of quran, try not thinking bout her when ever she comes on your mind start reading ayatul kursi tell your parents this is a serious issue. if you have firm fate then it will go inshallah
ma salama
Very interesting, confusing, and am lost. LOL. Wow, I don't get this, this brother had me reading and reading and loving this thinking its a short story of some sort to help other brothers from committing sin. Very shocking, I think brother Wael should email this brother to get to the bottom of this post. Is it real or a joke. I agree with the Jinn comment, it is very highly a possibility. If so then this is no joke and this brother should address this to his family immediately. I also, like the Bismallah part in the same comment about Jinn, LOL, at least that took the edge off and gave me so sense of humor after reading this very complicated situation. I cant get over how confused and lost I am, I think I got a headache. LOL. Am not trying to be funny at all and I ask Allah to help this brother if any of this is true, impossible. I hope he's a brother who is practicing his writing skills, if so, I gave him an A+++++. If not he definitely needs help. One brother suggested praying and so on. Attack this issue from all ways, seriously. Please keep me posted on this.
Thanks for your input brother Mahmoud. I will do as you suggested and write to the brother for an update.
as i was reading it i thought jinn too, maybe he needs to get ruqyah performed on him, and he should see a doctor too fo sure
I think, not a lot of people would not understand this complicated situation that you are going through. Some might mock at you, others might think you are crazy.... I would go deeper on myself, ask help of Allah more and more. Nobody knows, how Allah comforts his servants. It could be specific solution just for you.. Neither me nor anybody else would know. So be careful on judgement, when you ask for advice from somebody who did not experience what you have. May Allah guide you what is best for you. Anything is possible. Usually once you experience this intimate relationship, I guess everything else might seem shalow.
salaam alaykum brother hhhh nice story but your not the only one so dont worry i also have a imaginary man in mind im so inlove with him he is all i want everything good he possess,he is perfect.now look this is how me and you feel we are searching for somebody perfect,unfortunately nobody is perfect now pls whoever read this dont start arguing please i said somebody is Allah a body? no he is one the one and only perfect one.ok back to you dont give up keep loving her because oneday you will meet her inshlh in jannah so if you really love her you have got to love Allah and obey him so that you may enter jannah and meet her,do you know every second you love her and everytime you wait for her and say inshlh we will meet in jannah
do you know that you are getting reward for your patience? but look this is life and Allah is testing us so dont let this prevent you from marrying a non perfect girl hhhh because we all need to perform our lively duties marry somebody get kids increase the ummah love and look after them Allah loves the good doers dont worry you will still meet your love in jannah inshlh,hhhh and so will i 🙂
Hello
I understand you couse a have an imaginary friend too. I love her but she doesnt like me.
Anna
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Brother i have two imaginary friends a girl and a boy for some reason the boy looks like someone in school the girl looks like me i am 11 yrs old they only come when i lonely,sad,at night, and scared i really like the boy badly even at school sometimes my imaginary friends help me do my work plz make du'a for me inshaalaah
ameen
seriously, nothing funny at all but I kept reading this story till the end. usually I don't have patience for long stuffs but this one just kept me glued. I kept scrolling all the way to the bottom. very interesting short story. this is a best selling writer material!! no kidding!! but really, you are not alone on this. I too have imaginary friends and I was searching for people with same problem and that was how I found this post. I've had mine since I was four. I know the solution is God and prayers and of course the willingness to let go of those evil habits.
Asalaam Alaiakum Warahmat Allah Wabarakatu,
After reading this article and comments there is no doubt that these "imaginary" friends, are not imaginary at all. They are Jinn who are messing with human victims and the only way to rid oneself from this sort of affliction is by Quran. This means, the victims must be praying 5times/day, performing morning, afternoon and evening adhkaar. Ruqya is a form of treatment that is don by recitation of alQuran as well and Scholars have taught certain methods in the Sunnah and according to the Salaf in ridding these jinn- who are really disobeying Allah subhanawat3la. There are qualified people to do Ruqya, many in the UK...some in the US..but really no amount of Ruqya is going to help if you are not praying, turning to Allah, trying to rid of sins, and purify your actions. Simple things should also not be undermined like saying Bismillah when entering your home, saying the duaa when entering the bathroom. Reciting Ayat alKursi without fail when you wake up and go to bed, trying to maintain your state of wudu throughout the day even when you are not praying, fasting on Mondays and Thursdays if capable, being involved with other practicing Muslims at the masjid, going for Jummuah every week if you're a guy, saving to go for Umrah or Hajj, giving more in charity, purifying your intentions in living for the sake of Allah, seeking comfort from Allah instead of the jinn, reading Surah alMulk and Surah Sajdah every night. Doing whatever you can to follow the Sunnah of Prophet Muhammad salAllahu alayhee wasallam which also means increasing your knowledge and never thinking that you do enough for Allah yet always firmly believing that Allah is capable of helping your desperate need for help. Nag Allah for a cure and remember that the Quran is a healing. Realize that the evils out there are real as confirmed by Allah, like Sihr- Black Magic which can also be a cause of this sort of affliction. Do not listen to those voices- they are shayateen, and do not be tricked by their waswasa because they use your own voices in leading you to believe that these thoughts are yours. Be adament in reciting the last 3 Surahs in the Quran, Ayat alKursi and the last 2 in Surah alBaqara every morning and night as well. Remember that Rasullilah salAllahu alayhee wasallam also taught us that if we read Surah Baqara in our home then shayateen (jinn who oppress people) will not be allowed to enter homes for 3 days or 3 nights. Try also to stay indoors and keep kids inside for a short while after Maghrib because this is an active time for these losers. The more adhkaar you do throughout the day, the thicker the shield around you and the harder it is for these jinn to enter your hearts- as "imaginary friends" aim to do. Allah Knows Best. May Allah protect each of you and protect us all. Ameen.
Really good advice, maa shaa Allah.
Assalamulaikum
I know that i am 9 years late but i hope that you reply to this comment
After reading this i am pretty confused, like you said that, you spended money to travel and go see her, but how? Did she had her own house? how's that even possible?
And how did you used to imagine her, physically or mentally?
And since it has already been 9 years i would love to know what happend next
I am sorry for my stupid questions and for my poor english
I had an imaginary girl friend same as him. I created her 7 years ago. I was badly in need of a female companion of mine at that time.According to islamic shariah it is not allowed to have that otherwise marriage.But i was a teenage that time and i also did not wanted that other girl commit zina just because of me so i creat her for taking care of me in my teenage life prbls. She was beside me for 7 years. Then i understood that i can't compare her with my future wife . No wife can't be perfect as we want them, but we have to accept what is real. So i thought that she is dead, but she will be born again as my future wife, her face and body and nature behavior wont be same , but her soul would . I will love her as same as yesterday when she was in my imagination . Thats how i overcome my prblm and enjoying my single life and wait for her as my future wife. Because Allah will gave me what i deserve