I am not happy in life anymore.
Dear adviser, I used to pray a lot, I stopped for a while but I returned to pray because I was commiting so much sins that I got worried so I pray at work and home I try my best to pray.
But the problem is,... I am not happy at all I swear in Allah´s name, Islam doesn't make me happy, I feel nothing when I pray, now they say happinesss is from worshipping Allah but it is not working for me,...I pray on time 5 prayers and it will not work for me and now I am 29 years old I´ve been muslim all my life,..what should I do?
I feel Allah doesn´t care about me or my happiness at all Iam sad and empty and single. I am not bless with anything in life, I am not happy, all I see is beautiful things in life like women, cars, luxury things and wealth. I hate this life that I never asked for.
Islam says don´t look at people above you but look the ones are below you but that ain´t gonna change anything in my life I ask allah swt so many things that is halal even basic things like having a beautiful wife but still I don´t get anyting rather I pray so many times it will not make me happy my heart is so empty, I just try my best to obey him, I am so young few people at work say why don´t you smile but when I smile, deep in my heart it´s not real I just pretend.
I feel Allah swt is not there, I started to hate life and reality a reality that I don´t want, there is nothing here for me in this earth no path sometimes i play the lotto to win million dollars that will make me so happy and live an exotic life I just want money that can make me happy this will solve my happiness because religion that good people say is the key to happiness can´t not even put a smile in my face that is the truth of my life, my body prays but my heart is empty.
Please give me a good advise I am so sick of life going to work with stress waking everyday to earn little money I have no comfort in life & religion I am a very good person people say but still am just not happy any more Allah swt can not grant me happiness I feel he doesn´t care about my life or what I want .
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