Tag Archive for ‘loneliness’
In all my years, I have been alone. I believe strongly in the sanctity of marriage, and I fear Allah. I have never been with a woman, never held or kissed one, although I have been heartsick over two. I fear Allah, but I am so lonely. My heart is breaking. As I get older, I fear the prospect of finding a wife to love and cherish is becoming ever more remote… is it my destiny to remain alone until I die?
Sometimes I wonder why Allah brings people in the world if they will have so many problems? There are even times when I have told myself that maybe I won’t even have anyone in this life, and then again this life is temporary. I just don’t know what’s happened to me? I don’t understand how rude, heartless, and conniving people get such caring, loving, and devoted partners; and when it comes to honest people who want good for others and care for others, they just have it so hard.
Please tell me how should I forget him and start a fresh, and whether I really love him or it’s just the effect of the loneliness with me. Pray for me that I get a religious, loving husband and the one who respects my feeling and emotions.
He is INCAPABLE of EMPATHY for me when I am hurt or upset about something he does. If I am hurt and complain to him, he always seems to interject HIMSELF into the conversation and play victim. He even does this with our children. I have a son who is ADHD and requires alot of care. My husband LOVES his children but is not good nurturer or talker.
I know Allah knows best but I just don’t understand why someone could be meant to walk through life alone? Am I being forced to pay for the sins of my parents which I cannot ever change?
Look everyone leaves me. now i feel extremely alone , deppressed and sad especially at nights. i couldnt believe and understand why do i cry so much. i cant control on crying, at one moment i m happy and at other i m crying .
I don’t know how to begin my life story. My first husband died in war in 1995. After 4 years, I got married for the second time, only Sharia wedding. That man was religious and was on Hajj.
I am writing in today as I have started feeling incredibly low again, I just feel as though life is full of CONSTANT hurdles and I keep losing motivation. I know I should be grateful to Allah swt for everything I have, but I have been dying for one particular happiness for a long while now but despite my efforts I am not seeing any results. I had a horrible expereince when I first set out to find a suitable spouse and it traumatised me, it took me a long while to recover from it but I have.
We had to marry before Ramadan so I could be with him through out and I fasted that month which was amazing.. I knew after I wanted to convert.. But he would always say to be that I am not ready and put me down about the religion saying that I am not fit to be a Muslim…
As I am a housewife, I wait for him to come from office.When he comes, he just comes for 5 min, then he leaves the room, … Sometimes it seems that there are some magnetic forces that are attracting him to come outside.