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I turned to Allah and asked Him about this, and alhamdillah I’m seeing changes and people also have pointed it out. But I want to dramatically change in that I want to be have a stronger iman, stop talking about people, be kind and nice, and also have everyone and Allah love and respect me.
I began to surf the internet -but not porns, just hot scenes and hot images. After this I used to masturbate twice in a week, now I am uncontrolled of leaving it.
First, missing Salah at times, then reducing daily 5 times to only 4 or 3 even 2. Then I used to listen music again (very less that too at times), and this also changed into a daily routine of music, then finally I began missing namaz daily, then came porn and masturbution. Now I am unable to have control over these wrong deeds.
I want to be a better Muslim…I just want Allah to forgive me for one last time but in my head I keep saying to myself, ” you are talking nonsense- you will do it again no matter how many times you ask for forgiveness”.
I am 15 and I live in Singapore. I really need help in my life.
I masturbate a lot of times, smoked before but I quit it, drank beer once cos of curiosity, lie to my parents, I don’t pray,