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Disturbing thoughts and urges – What’s happening to me?

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"I seek refuge with Allah from satan the accursed"

Dear sir ,

I am writing to you. I am victim of unknown force. i am currently living in Islamabad. I regularly visited various blogs that has been of very much helpful. these days i am having very complex issue that i am constantly having thoughts of lust , sexuality even to stab with knife girls in the belly and feeling pleasure in it. like Film or movie i am having such thoughts although i never suppose to watch bad movies or gathering of bad friends i don't know wats the issue but in night these thoughts get much powerful and it seems like i am doing this filth i really want to get out of this.

Whenever i get in this situation i recite various wazif but during these wazaif i get these thoughts. just like somone force to thought if i am having a girl and stab her belly repeatedly and feeling pleasure in it to see blood. when these thoughts come i feel strange vibrations and fear of unknown i recite laho le walkowat. Please give me solution , one more thing various times i and all family members feel strong smell of Hair burn in home "Baal jalnay ke bo atii ha pora ghar sa jand minute tak". agar tanoor ke white roti ho tu jaisay he ma hath ma kagat hon tu khoon ma tabdeel hotee jati ha.

i know you may be busy but please take time to write few lines of solution i will be really greatful

Victim


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  1. As-salamu Alaykum,
    I hope you will listen to me and go see a neurologist. At least two symptoms you mentioned are strongly associated with epilepsy: a vibrating sensation and the smell of burning hair. Strange smells in particular are often epilepsy auras, and a seizure does not always mean falling to the ground unconscious. Depending on the area of the brain that is affected, someone with epilepsy can experience strange or disturbing thoughts. Whether you have epilepsy or not, a neurologist can evaluate you and point you in the right direction if he concludes your issue is psychological rather than physical. It is really important to have yourself evaluated as soon as possible so that your problem does not develop any further.

    • Sensations of vibrating and disturbing thoughts can definitely be of neurological origin, a form of epilepsy. Please listen to A, and see a neurologist.

    • A: OP says "one more thing various times i and all family members feel strong smell of Hair burn in home "Baal jalnay ke bo atii ha pora ghar sa jand minute tak". agar tanoor ke white roti ho tu jaisay he ma hath ma kagat hon tu khoon ma tabdeel hotee jati ha."

      His whole family feels strong smell of burning hair some times. What does he mean by "agar tanoor ke white roti ho tu jaisay he ma hath ma kagat hon tu khoon ma tabdeel hotee jati ha."

      If his whole family is feeling things it could be some thing effecting the whole family.

  2. Lust and sexual thoughts are kind of normal for young men/boys..

    Thoughts of feeling pleasure in stabbing girls with knives is very unusual. You should see a psychiatrist who can see the reason behind such thoughts and help your mind get away from these abnormal thoughts

    • SVS, a neurologist first. Not all psychiatrists are able to identify neurological disorders, and epilepsy or a tumor are serious diseases. I know this because I spent years being treated for "excessive anxiety" and "possible bipolar disorder" and I was finally diagnosed with Grave's/Hashitoxicosis by a nurse practitioner at a gynecology clinic. During the time I was untreated for the thyroid disorder, I lost literally half of my body weight and could barley stand. I had a resting heart rate of over 140 - and the psychiatrist never considered this significant. It was amazing how quickly I became "normal" I became with propranolol followed by a thyroid suppressant.

      • Anonymouse: I was finally diagnosed with Grave's/Hashitoxicosis by a nurse practitioner at a gynecology clinic. During the time I was untreated for the thyroid disorder, I lost literally half of my body weight and could barley stand. I had a resting heart rate of over 140 - and the psychiatrist never considered this significant. It was amazing how quickly I became "normal" I became with propranolol followed by a thyroid suppressant.

        You need a new PCP. For how long you had a resting heart rate over 140.

        Diagnosis of Graves disease is usually made on the basis of symptoms, although thyroid hormone tests may be useful, particularly to monitor treatment

        Graves' disease (or Flajani-Basedow-Graves disease) is an autoimmune disease, commonly affects the thyroid, frequently causing it to enlarge to twice its size or more (goiter), become overactive, with related hyperthyroid symptoms such as increased heartbeat, muscle weakness, disturbed sleep, and irritability. It can also affect the eyes, causing bulging eyes (exophthalmos).

        It affects up to 2% of the female population, sometimes appears after childbirth, and occurs seven to eight times more often in women than in men. Genetic factors are a major factor accounting for possibly around 80% of the risk.

        • Uhyup. While undiagnosed I managed to develop severe exophthalmos, eventually Class 6, which led to orbital decompression. Part of the problem was that I had Hashitoxicosis, where my thyroid level erratically veered up and down. The diagnosis was confirmed with a thyroid scan. I had a resting heartbeat of over 140 for more than four months. I was around 70 pounds in weight when diagnosed. My thyroid wrapped itself completely around my neck and under my rib cage, so I didn't have the traditional forward lump.

          My primary care sent me to a *psychiatrist* when I came in with shortness of breath, extremely rapid heartbeat, fatigue, irritability, inability to sleep, feeling constantly overheated and itchy, eye bulging, and a 25 pound weight loss in one month.

  3. Thanks all for the valuable comments but now I can say that this is a kind of Forum I can share without hesitation so I will share the complete history in few days a head because of workaholic office schedule. One may belive or not me and my whole family has gone through a very dark period but it is the blessings of Almighty Allah that there has been the ray of guidance but I should pray Allah save everyone's family from this darkness, from this spiral of negative force, from this vicious circle that leads to nowhere.

  4. Yes I remember that was 1995 when there was a self assured and bold child aimed to become a fighter pilot. He was such a confident about his dream that he couldn’t be able to think of another option. He was not aware of the dark storm knocking his door to destroy every golden moment of his childhood and that child was me.
    When I was in class I had a firm belief that no one can stop me realize my dreams but with the passage of time I realized that there is force that constantly hinders me to perform at optimum level specially in academics in class 9 I remember that with all my efforts I wouldn’t be able to get even good grades I felt like mind is jammed. I passed matric with my all hardships but with flying colors Aone grade. Physics was my favorite subject because I really wanted to join airforce and thought that physics I necessary to accomplish this goal. So I decided to join cadet college Jhelum that is military college so from Karachi I went to my hometown near chakal and stayed there to take entry test of that college. Dream was just ahead of me. But as I reached to my hometown and home of my uncle (Chaha) everything even the reason to take test was get meaningless. I repeatedly unconsciously asking question to myself that why I came here I had to move back to my home in Karachi after few days test day came and I went to Jhelum for test I was well prepared for that test and test was much easy then my expectations but it was like at that moment my mind was not in my control and as someone is constantly saying do not attempt test go back home so I didn’t attempt a single question and after test I realized what I did and thinking why I did that mess? I was feeling that I have lost very precious.

    When I came back to Karachi (I think I can explain more detai8ls in urdu) mera ghar mera nahi lag raha tha buas ye he lagta tha k I have lost everything aur har waqt rota rehta tha. Ghar ma har waqt ajeb se ghutan aur shaded garmi rehtee thee jo kisi ghar me nahi hotee thee tamaparosee jo bahut achay thaay sub hum logo ko dekhtay hee apnay apnay gharo k darwazay band karlatay jaisay hum koi “Achoot” haen. Ma tu har waqaat rota he rehta thaa because yeh sub jkuch aisa nahi thaa jub ma Karachi sa test denay Jhelum gia tha.
    Sub ghar walay specially meri choti bahen bahut bemar rehnay lagi. Maghrib ka waqt shaded ghabrahat aur feeling k I have lost everything nothing left aur bahuit mayusi dil ko gher latee thee. Maghrib k waqt dil phat nay lagta ta tha. Ghar ma shaded garmi aur ghutan ko neighbors nab he maehsoos kia.phir yeh hota ka roz subah jab college k liya ghar sa nikalta tu ghar ka darwazay par najasat pari hoti yeh bahut naqabal e bardasht bat the but constantlt yeh hee hota rah kuch pata nahi chalta thaa ka yeh kon akar ghhar k darwazay ka pass najasat kar jata ha. DJ college Karachi ma bari kushi sa admission kiya but doston sa parhai sa bus har chez sa dil ochat ho gia tha aur shaded mayusi aur financial crises nag her liya tha. Kabhi dastarkhoan nimatoo sa bhara hoa hota tha but on dino nubat yahan tak agai k ifter k time par ami khali paleto par dhakan dee kar rakhtee k neighbors ma pata na chala k hamaray ha iftari nahi bani. Jo kuch income hoti who hospitals k chakar me nikal jati even doctors ka attitude hamri sath bara rude hota tha pata nahi kio. Ghar sa har waqt toilet ke smell ate thee although I was among bright students in school but cleared Intermediate in 3 attempts. My friends were also shocked that wats happening to me?
    But Almighty Allah is with me, I finally joined university. I remember when I was coming to my department from university maingate. Time was between asar nad maghrib I saw three cups full of icecream lying in same directions with some distance from each other and what was really shocking to me was number of dead crows lying around a tree next to the third cup of ice cream sub crows ke graden mori hoi thee that was a horrible scene for me but I ignored and joined class in department. After few days when I was coming back to my home after leaving my class in the university someone called me by my name Haroon…..haroon then as tuned no one was there and I clearly heard a sound of laughing a very thin sound I just ran away from that sight but since then I in night clearly heard sound of someone calling me with my name. jab ma sota tu yu lagta k koi meray pass akar behtha ha mujh par bhonkta ha and achanak muhay shaded jhatka lagta.
    I cleared my masters and got job of MTO in a bank and we then shifted to a better area of Karachi. Wahan sub log bahut cahay thaa but achanak sub hum sa khechay hovay rehna lagay and that was quite evident from their reserved attitude. I remember a day of exam in university when just before exam I was losing my eyesight gradually but receting surahs I get it back and in the paper of stats I was constantly counting zeros in a five digit figure and that was unconsciously I was not in my control and kept on counting zeros agin again and again till end of the time my classfellows were watching me and as time over I realized that what I was doing oh!
    Phir aksar mujhay chicken ka khoon alod par milta apnay flat ke stairs par but jab ma ami ya bau ko dikhata tu ghaib hotay. During university days ma school ma teaching bhe karta tha when i was coming back to home I saw full street filled with chickens necks oh then when I came home I also saw two chicken necks with fdresh blod lying on both sides of the main door of the flat. For thwe first time all my family members realized that someone is casting witch spell on us. Phir aksar ghar k andar sa gosht k pieces milna shoro hogay. Meri choti bahen ke tabiyat bahut kharab rehnay lag gai. Whenever she appeared in her exams she saw a woman before her eyes jagtee ankhoo sa k that woman was saying you could not complete your paper and after that her hand jammed till end of the paper but when she receted Darood that woman disappeared.

    I remembered when I went to a nearby hospital for checkup and I met with a Baba G who bahut puranay kapro me khasta hal lagrahay thaa ma onka pass beth gia he told me k Bahut mushkil waqt aiga but Allah cha hay gat u hi tum log es mushkil wqat sa nikal sako gay. We shifted to Islamabad from Karachi three years ago but initially yahan akar meri choti bahen ke tabiyat bahut kharab hogai thee meri aur meri bahen ke roti jub salan sa lgatay tu khon ma tabdeel hojati jo menay previous article me mention kia thaa. We took loan from bank and shifted to new hose in another area in Islamabad I got another job after leaving Karachi of Rs 2000/- that was quite low but I got job after one and half year whenever I applied for job for which I was quite eligible I saw in dreams that someone is saying are you searching for job yeh lo tumharay muqadar ma yeh ha but when I opened that packet in dream I found najasat in it. I was constantly having such dreamns but I got job. Even during shifting I found a piece of amulet hiden in cup bud when I contacted a mufti sahib in Islamabad he said foran esko pani ma baha du. Mufti sahib ke rehnomai sa aub sub ghar walay namaz aur wazaif ke pabandi kartay haen. Situation is not as worst as before specially in Karachi but why its chocking every single moment of family. When this vicious circle end kindly guide us please if you do not like to publish this kindly after reading this suggest any permanent solution Allah apko jzai khair day.

  5. Is it haraam to voice sexual thoughts?

    I know I sound disgusting, but sometimes I get really bad sentences in my head. Like stuff with bad words like f, or d*k, etc...

    I said some of them today on purpose!!! I feel anxious.

    • aabidah, you should not say curse words or haram thoughts. Voicing such things out loud is unacceptable. That's why you should try to control your thoughts in the first place.

      Just make tawbah to Allah and try not to do it again. Even if you make the mistake 100 times, make tawbah 100 times.

      Wael
      IslamicAnswers.com Eidtor

      • I feel very very horrible.
        How can I fix the mistakes I made?
        One of those thoughts I had I said it out loud ,and it involved one of those very bad words. After I said it about the person I had a thought about myself....so as if I was saying the thought was goign on between me and the person....meaning it was very inappropriate and bad.

        I feel so ashamed that I said this thought about me and the person.....I feel disgusted with mysefl. This person is a family member so it was a very very bad thing. I don't know why I did what I did.

        How shall I go about to ficx this, how should I make the toubah

  6. aabidah: I feel very very horrible.
    How can I fix the mistakes I made?
    One of those thoughts I had I said it out loud ,and it involved one of those very bad words. After I said it about the person I had a thought about myself....so as if I was saying the thought was going on between me and the person....meaning it was very inappropriate and bad......I don't know why I did what I did.........

    I am trying to understand........did you say bad words to a family member in his/her face. If you did you should apologize.

    Did you do it to a cousin? You have to look deep inside you and you will know why you did it?

    Do you have close family members or friends who use these bad words regularly?

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