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Masturbation -I don’t know if I broke my hymen or not – CLOSED

Assalamualaykum,

Ok so this is a very personal question. I used to have a habit of masturbation back then. Now I've stopped. I've promised to Allah to never ever again do that haraam thing again. The thing is, I might have broke my hymen or maybe not. I don't know about it much cause I never bled down there except when menses. Though when I was a kid, I played quite hard. Not to mention, I never once insert a finger in my vagina. I did something but never insert anything.

I am now very conscious about everything. I'm really scared what my future husband might think of me and also I'm scared whenever the issue of virginity is out. As I know I myself am a virgin but I keep on blaming myself for doing that kind of stuff.  It's been awhile but my mind just can't stop thinking about it. I hate to go out in public as I think like they know about all my dirty little secrets.

That's it. I hope those who read this can help me.

servantofgod


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  1. As-salamu alaykum sister. Your anxiety and worry are unnecessary. It's debatable whether masturbation is even haram or not (I don't believe it is, but there are different opinions). In any case if you've given it up and you feel comfortable without it, Alhamdulillah.

    No one can see your past sins except Allah. No one knows anything you have done.

    I'm not sure what kind of help you are looking for exactly. You have made your tawbah, Alhamdulillah, and that's it. Live your life.

    Obviously we do not know whether your hymen was broken. As far as whether that is important, and what shall you tell your husband, etc, we had an endless debate about these subjects on one of our recent posts ("I want my boyfriend to pay for my hymen restoration") and I don't care to see the subject reopened. Perhaps you can benefit from the comments on that post.

    This post is now closed.

    Wael
    IslamicAnswers.com Editor