My parents hate me for converting to Islam; please help
Assalam O Alaikum,
I am 16 and I used to party and drink and not do well in school I was even close to having sex but I am so happy I never did that. I felt lost and alone. About 9 months ago I had to do research for school on Islam. After reading about it i felt like my heart open end up. I can't explain it but it's the feeling of longing for something and looking for something and then finding it. I changed my ways. I don't party, drink I dress modestly and even my teachers told me how proud they are that I have changed so much and doing better in school. I feel better, I have more respect for myself I just feel what I'm doing is right.
The problem is my family. I love them and I respect my parents but my parents don't believe in anything and my dad tells me he will never accepts me if I stay Muslim. I try to listen and I don't argue because I'm thinking they are seeing how much better of a person I have become. The rest of my family makes fun of me and put on movies I don't watch. They have excluded me from family trips and my dad hit me the other day because I old him I love him but I love Allah more and I am happy. I don't want them to be upset with me. It's just getting worse last night my mom said no dinner let your God make you dinner. I told her how much I appreciate her cooking and I can cook too if she needs help but she just didn't want to talk. It seems the more I try to help them and respect them the more they hate me.
I pray all the time to get the wisdom to show them that this has made me the best person inside and I know without a doubt that I am doing the right thing. I just don't know what to do I was wondering if anyone could help me. I tried explaining things everyone else can see how I changed for the better and how happy I am how come they can't see it. I'm still the same person only better. I know it sounds harsh when I told my dad that I love Allah more but I love them to and I told him that. What do I do? And I will not give up Islam ever so please no answers like wait until your 18 because I know now; thank you. I know I still have a lot to learn about being a Muslim and I pray about that and try to learn something everyday I just don't have anyone to turn to.
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As Salamualaikum,
My little sister, I have a lot to learn from you. Your conviction is amazing masha Allah. And don't worry, I won't ask you to wait until you become 18.
Faith and conviction are among the biggest gifts of Allah Subhaanah, which, He gives only to His chosen slaves. You have got it, and its your duty to protect it, whatever difficulties you may face.
Jannah is not easy, sister. A Hadith has it that:
"The Fire has been surrounded by lusts and desires and the Paradise by hardships." [Bukhari, Muslim].
Another hadith explains this further. According to that, when Allah created the Garden (meaning Paradise), He asked Anglel Jibreel (Gabriel) to go and take a look at it. So he went and looked at the Paradise and at all that Allah had prepared for its inhabitants. Then he said: "O My Lord! By Your Honor, No one who hears about this place would stay away from it." Then Allah surrounded the Paradise by difficulties and hardships and asked Jibreel again to go and take another look. Jibreel went again and after looking at it came back and said: "O My Lord! By Your Honor, I am afraid now that no one will be able to enter it." Then after Allah created the Hell, He asked Jibreel to go and take a look. When Jibreel came back he said: "O My Lord! By Your Honor, no one who hears about it will ever enter it." Then Allah surrounded the Hell by all kinds of lusts and desires and asked Jibreel to take another look. This time after looking at it Jibreel said: "O My Lord! By Your Honor, I am afraid that no one will be able to avoid it."
The life of a believer is filled with hardships, but sister, know that Allah only tests those that He Loves. He tests His slaves in order to increase them in their levels. And the intensity or the difficulty level of there tests depends on the level of one's faith and conviction.
So, just be happy, and trust in Allah. You are on the right and there's no way Allah will leave you alone, if you keep your hopes in Him alive.
Now, what is the action you can take?
There are 2 options you have, which I can think of.
1. Look for an Islamic Center and explain to them the issue. And see what help they can provide you.
2. Have patience and bear your family until you're ready to get married. Though not everyone may agree with me on this, but I see that this option can help you increase your level of conviction, each time you face such situation and deal with it, with trust in Allah and by saying:
Hasbiyallahu wa Ni'mal Wakeel
(Allah is my availer and protector and the best of aids.)
This is what Ibraheem (Abraham) Peace be upon him said when if was being cast into the fire by his tribe.
Have patience and keep your duty to Allah by praying all the 5 daily prayers and practicing the Deen, as any other practicing Muslim girl does.
If you choose this option, then you could offer your prayers in seclusion, so that the anger do your family does not double, when they see you bow down to The Lord they don't worship.
But sister, I see some difficulty here. Ramadan is approaching and it maybe difficult for you to keep fasts, as your family would not entertain it. You could probably wake up early for the pre fast meal, before the call for Fajr prayer is made, and eat something to keep the fast. Otherwise, you could look for other options which are feasible. Allah Knows Best what is best for you. My thinking is limited and insha Allah, you'll find that Allah will find you a way. Just keep your trust in Him.
Be in the company of pious Muslim girls and visit the mosque often to meet the Muslim women and listen to the talks and improve your faith. Also keep reading duas from the famous book of duas called the Fortress of the Muslim. You can download it here:
http://www.islamhouse.com/p/39062
An important point: if your family threatens to harm you or tries to do it, you should immediately leave per me, and seek support from an Islamic Center when you have found one.
Allah Knows Best
Wassalamualaikum
Muhammad Waseem
IslamicAnswers.com Editor
I can recall an incident from the lifetime of the Messenger Peace be upon him, which points towards option 2 I mentioned above.
Ammar, the son of Yasir was a companion of Allah's Messenger Peace be upon him.
The idolators of Makkah one day plundered Yasir’s house, set fire to all their goods, and chained the whole family up. They were taken outside of Mecca to where slaves were punished and were beaten. They were stretched accross the burning sun of the desert, and heavy blocks of stone were put on top of them. Their howls of pain could be heard in Mecca, to discourage anyone else from becoming Muslim or following Muhammad.
Muhammad ’s (Peace be upon him) heart went out to
Ammar and his family when he saw the pain that the idolatorous Meccans were inflicting on them. To ease this pain the Prophet would continuously say to them, “Patience oh family of Yassir, for you are destined for Paradise.” (Sahih al-Tirmidhi, v5, p233)
At this time, Islam was not dominant and the Muslims were not in power. Infact, they were oppressed.
In your case, sister, what you see from your family is similar oppression, but of a much lower degree, because of what I mentioned above about the tests of Allah.
Muhammad Waseem
IslamicAnswers.com Editor
Out of curiosity, does your school have a Muslim Student Association that you could join so that you could learn more about Islam and be around others of your faith? Are there any muslim teachers that you could talk to? Your teachers are obviously encouraged by your move to a better path in life, so take that to heart and don't let your family discourage you. Brother Waseem offers good advice. And don't forget that your school guidance counselors are there to assist you as well should matters at home worsen. Take care.
sallam sister
The prophet Abraham when telling his father he was muslim was tormented by him and even cast away by his father. He never stopped loving his family nor did he ever leave his faith. Mashallah its so beautiful to see someone with such strong conviction towards islam and inshallah you will go to heaven for your choices ameen.
Life is a trial, stick to your faith and be strong,. Your a strong beautiful intelligent person thats why you have been blessed with wisdom and have decided to follow the correct path. I will pray that your family situation gets easier inshallah.
Allah hafiz
Sister Assalam alikum,
You should keep your eyes and ear open and your mouth closed. There is no need to tell your parents that you love Allah more then them. Just keep your islam and understand your family more. Shaytan is using your lack of knowldege of islam to create fights with in your family.
You have on obligation to tell about your islam to your parents. They will change when their hearts open up. Just pray to Allah swt. You can not change any one's heart
Do you mean you have NO obligation to tell islam about your parents?
I assume thats what you meant and it was just a typo
Happy Ramadan! I pray all is well with you at home.
Salam
Asalam waliykum,
Firstly mabrook and welcome little sis. So proud you made the choice to question life and open your eyes and mind and answer the call from Allah.
I hope your faith strengthens as the years go on. You are so strong willed already mashallah i can say that we are all proud of you. And pray for your safety.
Only rely on Allah sis.
Do you have any female muslims in your school? Do you know where the mosque is?
Seek help from the local muslims, if you were older i would say move out. But as you are young and unmarried you should really stay with your family if it is safe. Of course if it is not safe like you aid your father hit you perhaps you need to talk to social services no type of abuse emotional or physical should be tolerated. Respect your parents but what they doing is forbidden even as a non muslim. They should not hurt you... So you need to report this.
Visit the local mosque and inshallah you will find the imam helpful and will give you lots of advice if needs be inshallah you can ask him to act as your Wali/gaurdin if you need that service.
I hope these two points work out well for you. Stay strong and stay respectful to your parents, its tough i can imagine. But do not lash out or hit back. They will soon see the benifits in your change and we should always be mindful of our behaviour to our family.
take care. hope you are having a blessed ramadan wasalam
Belive in allaha that allaha is only god in whole universe to worship
no god is their except allaha and mohammed is his prophet
read 5 times namaz a day beg forgiveness from allaha
and seek his help
talk to ur parents about islam tell them about islam and pray to
allaha to give them a guidance
Assalamu Alaikum sister,
I am also going through the same situation. I am 18 and when i was your age, 16, I also converted to a muslima, but then when my parents found out they got very upset and forced me to change back to a Hindu. For two years I've been practising hinuism, but just this year i decided to convert back to a muslima. I enjoy it, to tell the truth i love wearing a hijab and once I am married, in shaa Allah i just can't wait to wear a niqab. However, im stuck in the same situation as you, I don't know what to do , I don't want to hurt my parents either, but they keep insulting muslims and just upsetting me. A few times I've considered leaving my home so that I can practise islam freely, but I just can't find the strength to do that. I pray to Allah as much as I can, more than five times a day because i know i need his help and guidance, i keep begging him to show me some peace and freedom because as of now I am miserable. I just started going to university, it is my first year and I feel like im going to fail because my mind is not in the right place. My parents keep bugging me and putting pressure on me, which is putting me down and I'm crying myself to sleep every night. I really need help as well....
God bless you and welcome to Islam sister!
Yasmin, all the advice that was given to lostcanvas applies to you too. Stay strong and be patient. Allah will reward you greatly, greatly.
Wael
IslamicAnswers.com Editor
AS Lost what are some more details like what's the religion of your family, what country are you located in? You aren't old enough yet for college, but if you have a college in your town check to see if they have a Muslim Students Association where you can meet like-minded yougn people to give you company, guidance, advice.
Assalamualaikum!
I'm from Malaysia and of a Sikh family. I'm currently learning about Islam as well and definitely want to take my shahadah but it's not easy. even to practice Islam at home is not easy. My parents are religious and they are against Islam and my siblings are against Islam too and im the youngest. It is so hard. I'm currently studying but it's tough to concentrate on studies sometimes. I couldnt keep fast this year for ramadhan. Parents are also trying their best to make me stay within sikhism. they have renewed my faith in sikhism but i only agreed on doing it because i didnt wanna hurt them. That took place a year ago and now I feel i really want to tell them about islam and me converting to it. Can someone advice on this matter?
Preet, if you want detailed advice you need to log in and write your question as a separate post. But for a quick thought, perhaps you can emphasize to your parents the things that Sikhism and Islam have in common. For example, both religions are strictly monotheistic, believing in a single omnipotent, omniscient God. Both religions value family ties and respect for parents and elders, and both religions emphasize the importance of giving charity.
At some point you have to tell your parents the truth, and stand up for your decision. It's your life. They might be angry or hurt in the beginning, but they will accept your choice in time, Insha'Allah.
Wael
IslamicAnswers.com Editor
Assalaam alaykum, I am also a new revert to Islam and my parenst are against it- they are anti-Islam and will say anything to make me leave Islam, which aint gonna happen. I have an ultimatum to either leave Islam or leave the house, and if they still feel that way in a few days then I will have to leave the house as they don't want Islam being practised under their roof, although the only thing they would see is me not eating pork and fasting for Ramadan. I pray where I won't be disturbed and go to Mosque without them being affected by it, but still not enough.
Insha Allah both our parents will accept us for being Muslims and may Allah reward u for getting through this tough time.
Assalaam alaykum, Rob 🙂
Im glad you found some stuff on the internet that arent islamophobic or showcase islam in a bad way. It wasnt really harsh to tell your parents that u love their creator more then you love them, i feel sorry for u although life is supposed to be misery and suffering as it is a exam and the afterlife/heaven/ is the good grades u get if u do good in that exam; it's a really hard one; we lose who we love and sadly, theres a great chance ur parents arent going to heaven as a prophet of allah had to leave his unbelieving son to drown(noah and the arc) because his son didnt want to get ln the arc (he called him and he said he'll be protected by standing onthe top of a mountain if the flood his father is claiming occurred and prophet noah replied; there is no protector from allah today - he tried getting out of the boat to get him but allah stopped him and told him to leave him behind as he did not believe in the one&only god) also everyone thought he was crazy and a few only listened- those were the survivers, the only thing u could do is advising them quietly,always respect them and obey them in everything they say except when it disobeys allas orders -Allah). Even prophet mohamad(spelt many diff ways) was beaten and thrown rocks on by passerbys and desbelievers but with support from allah after alot of sacrifices and pain he spread islam around the whole world. Now however everything is declining, google "علامات يوم القيامة" which translates to the signs the day of the doom's day, when Gods judges all, no sin or good dead will be left back, every small thing, every small thought and look will be brought ahead on the day of judgment. Be ware it is very close and a very small amount of people are going to heaven while the biggest majority of the world or going to be shoved into hell, sorry its lengthy and both my grammar and spelling are awful but im trying to put as many thoughts as possible it also hard because my mother language is arabic so thats the language i have rich grammar in, but i hope u get the idea, the meaing of the world- its arabic&u wont find it on translating websites since its a religion but its still has a meaning; is cosisited of alot of stuff to learn its such a beautiful creation by Allah to facilitate our living and the quraan is our guide in life, islam is related to alot of science which backs it up, thousands of scientist have converted to islam as the are 1.smart 2.have unbelievable evidence 3.gifted by allah the gift of islam, god arranged ur gifting/ ur school project the date and everything before u wre even born , so sorry i cant stop writing ( if u succeed to convert a non believing person into a muslim(friend for ex.) u r 1 lucky girl the good deads u get from allah are alot lol okay bye
You don't need to be that strict. Just love Quran and Allah. Or else if you believe in one god and never go against Quran, you shall surely go to Jannah. It is same as Swarga in Hinduism.
I have the same situation. When my parents discovered I was muslim they hanged pictures of Jesus all over my house and forced me to pray to him. I hate to do it, but I don't want them to feel too dissapointed. Sometimes, I hide and pray to Allah, but I don't like praying to be a secret. My mum says muslims are terrorists and she won't hear to me when I try to explain she is wrong. All my family, relatives and basically all the people I know are Christians who love God and I don't know where to seek help. Once I saw a muslim family near my house, but never see them again. You can not even buy the Qur'an in the libraries of my country (Peru, in Southamerica). Help, I just want to follow the correct path. Thanks, Elisa
Sister welcome to Islam .A true path .May Allah help you and make it easy for you .Try convincing your mom slowly about Islam .please refer to this site .please google Islamic research foundation videos in google .you will find logical n convincing answers to show to your family .
Asalamu aleikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh my dear sister
If you can, try not to pray to the pictures. I am sorry to say this but why should you be sad to disappoint your family when disobeying Allah is far worse? Allah says "And We have enjoined upon man goodness to parents. But if they try to make you associate with Me that of which you have no knowledge, do not obey them. To Me is your return, and I will inform you about what you used to do." (Quran 29:8)
Praying to Eesa (Jesus) alayhi salam is associating partners with Allah. This is forbidden. Do not pray to him. This is a very serious matter.
If you fear they may hurt you if you refuse, you should probably try to leave home. The prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) alayhi salam was threatened by his father when Allah made him a prophet. He called his father to Islam and Ibrahim's father threatened to kill him so Ibrahim left. If you are old enough to legally leave home then that is better but if they threaten to seriously hurt you or kill you then you must go to protect your life. You can try searching for mosques close to you, if you go to them they may give you better advice as I am sure they'd understand your culture and situation better. Even if the closest mosque is far away, you can just call insha'Allah. If you are scared of leaving then just trust Allah. "And whoever emigrates for the cause of Allah will find on the earth many [alternative] locations and abundance..." (Quran 4:100) Alhamdulillah I have found this to be true. No need to worry.
As you already realized, you probably cannot count on the non-Muslims you know to help you. I am a similar situation as you and none care to help. Rather than caring, my family told me that people are mourning me like I am dead.
In all honesty, if you want to keep practicing Islam without your parents realizing it, do not tell anyone you are a Muslim. They may betray you. If you are legally allowed to move out, please try to. If you can move out, seek help at the closest mosque. Your family is trying to pull you back into Christianity. It's like they are calling you to jump into a pit of fire with them so do not obey them if you believe.. If you are able to leave, do not stop talking to them. Don't make them feel like Islam has made you abandon them. If they call you to disobey Allah, do not obey them. At first it may be hard but after that it gets easier. The best thing you can do is have patience and try your best to be kind to your parents. Insha'Allah their hearts will soften towards you. Just know that Allah is testing you. When Allah loves someone, He tests them. "Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe" and they will not be tried? But We have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars." (Quran 29:2-3)
Remember to keep up praying five times a day, all on time. Remember that this world is nothing compared to the next. There are two destinations, paradise and hellfire. Which one do you want? What is living 60, 70, 80 years compared to eternity. Obey Allah as He is more worthy of obedience than anyone else. He will reward you for the hardships you face on this Earth. As the Prophet Muhammad (salallahu alayhi wasallam) said, this life is a prison for the believer and paradise for the disbeliever. Having a hard life obeying Allah is a good thing.. There is a lot of reward in suffering, especially for the sake of Allah. After hardship, there is ease.
If you have a phone, you can download the Quran on it. Even if you dont have a phone you can always read on a computer or even listen to recitations on YouTube.
If you ever feel confused about Christianity because of them trying to confuse you, just remember how ridiculous their ideas of Allah are. You can always research the poem by Ibn al Qayyim called "O Christ Worshippers". You can watch it on YouTube.
A good website you can learn about Islam on is Islamqa.info/en. They have a version of the site in Spanish and you can ask them questions too. It may take a while for them to answer but they are upon truth. Here are some links from the site that can help:
A 12-year-old Muslim girl whose father is an atheist and her mother is Christian; they revile her Lord and her Prophet -- what should she do?- https://islamqa.info/en/136360
He has been guided recently, and his family and friends mock him. What should he do?- https://islamqa.info/en/106447
Advice to a believing girl whose family do not let her pray or wear hijab- https://islamqa.info/en/172446
She became Muslim recently and cannot practice Islam openly; how can she pray among her Hindu family?- https://islamqa.info/en/165426
Difficulties facing a Christian girl who wants to take the decision to enter Islam- https://islamqa.info/en/3313
A new Muslim girl fears that her family will see her praying; can she pray in the bathroom?- https://islamqa.info/en/153572
A Muslim treatment of mother who is an unbeliever- https://islamqa.info/en/322
She wants to become Muslim but thinks she will have problems with her friends, family and job- https://islamqa.info/en/4816
May Allah help you and keep you steadfast.
Do I have to change my name?
If you name has shirk in it like "Slave of Jesus", then you must change it. If it doesn't mean something bad then you don't have to.
I go to catholic school, but I am muslim, I told my parents about converting and they told me I was getting crazy and still have to go to that school. I have two questions: What do I have to do when I have to go for confirmation of faith next year? It is like a ceremony where everyone says their faith is christianity. The other question is that in my school they pray two times a day and I would just stay there without saying anything or praying at all and the teachers are beginning to notice. What do I do? I want to get out of that school! Please help, Bruno.
Try asking this on https://islamqa.info/en
Insha'Allah they'll give you better advice than anyone else who may answer on this site. They may take a bit to answer but they'll help very much.
In the meantime, I suggest you read aqeedah at tahawiyyah, kitab at tawheed and riyaad us saliheen. If you have an android, you can download these books as apps. The fatwa site I mentioned earlier has many catagories where you can study Islam.
This may seem a bit irrelevant to you but I suggest that before you make known that you're a Muslim, please study Islam because once you tell people you've converted, they may end up trying to convince you to leave. No matter how much you think you know, some things they say may confuse you. Spend time reading about essential subjects in Islam and learn from reliable sites like islamqa.info. Work on building your imaan so nothing will shake your belief in Allah.
Also, when they pray to Jesus and their saints, pray to the true God.
The importance of prayer – https://islamqa.info/en/12305
How to Perform Salah (Prayer)!: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL85A0EC87D924601C
Prayer times – https://salah.com & https://islamqa.info/en/9940
May Allah keep you steadfast
EDIT: Also, your situation is somewhat similar to Elisa's so please read the comments that she recieved. You can do this by using the tool on your browser called "find on page" and just type in the name Elisa.
IslamQA and this site are very different and offer different types of answers. They offer fatwas on matters of fiqh, while we tend to focus on life strategies and personalized advice. In any case, I think your answer is good.
Wael
IslamicAnswers.com Editor
I apologize if I have offended you with this quote, "they’ll give you better advice than anyone else who may answer on this site".
I had said that as they are scholars so of course they would be more helpful than laymen and when they advise, they base all of their advice from Quran and sunnah.
I am truly sorry if I have offended you.
How can you tell your parents that you are muslim when they are islamophobic?
She has become Muslim and is asking how she should tell her parents- https://islamqa.info/en/33827
The importance of prayer - https://islamqa.info/en/12305
How to Perform Salah (Prayer)!: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL85A0EC87D924601C
Prayer times - https://salah.com & https://islamqa.info/en/9940
May Allah keep you steadfast
Assalamu Alaikum,
I am thirteen years old and I converted to Islam a year and a half ago. My parents noticed I was acting a little weird when I began using more modest clothes and began encouraging me to use more immodest clothes, but I still wear too modest clothes according to them. I don't even wear hijab, but they get angry because my knees and shoulders are covered. A week ago they discovered I was a Muslim. They shouted at me for hours, and now they don't talk to me as much, force me to go to church, and even my little sister insulted me more than a few times. In my house, they began to pray to Virgin Mary, mother of Jesus; but even if I believe in Virgin Maryam (may Allah be pleased with her), mother of Isa; that is comparing her to Allah (SWT) and that is shirk, the worst sin. They force me to pray anyway, threatening to make me do things I will never do, like wearing a bikini on our next trip to the beach in front of everyone or going to dancing classes in front of boys, or to handle up with boys; I recite the prayer not believing on what I am saying. Does that count as shirk? If I commit shirk, even if I pray everyday during my lifetime and give zakat to all the poor, Allah (SWT) is not going to forgive me, right? And I would be in the fire as a disbeliever, right? Also, sometimes they cook pork, they didn't mind me avoiding me as much as I could when they didn't know I was a Muslim. But now they are force feeding me. I am scare. I don't want to go to the fire. I want to be a good Muslim, I pray everyday, but most of the time I can't pray five times because of school (Catholic school) or lack of time. Also, I am not very good in Arabic pronunciation and hardly know some words. Some day I will be a better Muslim, inshAllah. Please, help me.
Here are some earlier responses that may help you.
Asalamu aleikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh my dear sister
If you can, try not to pray to the pictures. I am sorry to say this but why should you be sad to disappoint your family when disobeying Allah is far worse? Allah says "And We have enjoined upon man goodness to parents. But if they try to make you associate with Me that of which you have no knowledge, do not obey them. To Me is your return, and I will inform you about what you He used to do. " (Quran 29: 8)
Praying to Eesa (Jesus) alayhi salam is associating partners with Allah. This is forbidden. Do not pray to him. This is a very serious matter.
If you fear they may hurt you if you refuse, you should probably try to leave home. The prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) alayhi salam was threatened by his father when Allah made him a prophet. He called his father to Islam and Ibrahim's father threatened to kill him so Ibrahim left. If you are old enough to legally leave home then that is better but if they threaten to seriously hurt you or kill you then you must go to protect your life. You can try searching for mosques close to you, if you go to them they may give you better advice as I am sure they'd understand your culture and situation better. Even if the closest mosque is far away, you can just call insha'Allah. If you are scared of leaving then just trust Allah. "And whoever emigrates for the cause of Allah will find on the earth many [alternative] locations and abundance ..." (Quran 4: 100) Alhamdulillah I have found this to be true. No need to worry.
As you already realized, you probably can not count on the non-Muslims you know to help you. I am a similar situation as you and none care to help. Rather than caring, my family told me that people are mourning me like I am dead.
In all honesty, if you want to keep practicing Islam without your parents realizing it, do not tell anyone you are a Muslim. They may betray you. If you are legally allowed to move out, please try to. If you can move out, seek help at the closest mosque. Your family is trying to pull you back into Christianity. It's like they are calling you to jump into a pit of fire with them so do not obey them if you believe .. If you are able to leave, do not stop talking to them. Do not make them feel like Islam has made you abandon them. If they call you to disobey Allah, do not obey them. At first it may be hard but after that it gets easier. The best thing you can do is have patience and try your best to be kind to your parents. Insha'Allah their hearts will soften towards you. Just know that Allah is testing you. When Allah loves someone, He tests them. "Do the people think that they will be left to say," We believe "and they will not be tried? But We have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars. " (Quran 29: 2-3)
Remember to keep up praying five times a day, all on time. Remember that this world is nothing compared to the next. There are two destinations, paradise and hellfire. Which one do you want? What is living 60, 70, 80 years compared to eternity. Obey Allah as He is more worthy of obedience than anyone else. He will reward you for the hardships you face on this Earth. As the Prophet Muhammad (salallahu alayhi wasallam) said, this life is a prison for the believer and paradise for the disbeliever. Having a hard life obeying Allah is a good thing .. There is a lot of reward in suffering, especially for the sake of Allah. After hardship, there is ease.
If you have a phone, you can download the Quran on it. Even if you dont have a phone you can always read on a computer or even listen to recitations on YouTube.
If you ever feel confused about Christianity because of them trying to confuse you, just remember how ridiculous their ideas of Allah are. You can always research the poem by Ibn al Qayyim called "O Christ Worshippers". You can watch it on YouTube.
A good website you can learn about Islam on is Islamqa.info/en. They have a version of the site in Spanish and you can ask them questions too. It may take a while for them to answer but they are upon truth. Here are some links from the site that can help:
A 12-year-old Muslim girl whose father is an atheist and her mother is Christian; revile her Lord they 're and her Prophet - what she shouldnt do? - https://islamqa.info/en/136360
He has been guided recently, and his family and friends mock him. He shouldnt do What? - https://islamqa.info/en/106447
To a believing Advice girl Whose family do not let her pray or wear Hijab- https://islamqa.info/en/172446
She became Muslim recently and can not practice Islam openly; she can pray how Among her Hindu family? - https://islamqa.info/en/165426
Facing a Christian Difficulties WHO COMPLETE girl wants to take the Decision to the enter Islam- https://islamqa.info/en/3313
A new Muslim girl fears that her family will see her praying; she pray in can the bathroom? - https://islamqa.info/en/153572
Muslim treatment of A mother WHO COMPLETE is an Unbeliever- https://islamqa.info/en/322
He wants to become She Muslim but thinks she will have problems with her friends Friends, family and Job- https://islamqa.info/en/4816
May Allah help you and keep you steadfast
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Asking this on Try https://islamqa.info/en
Insha'Allah they'll give you better advice than anyone else who may answer on this site. They may take a bit to answer but they'll help very much.
In the meantime, I suggest you read aqeedah at tahawiyyah, kitab at tawheed and riyaad us saliheen. If you have an android, you can download these books as apps. The fatwa site I mentioned earlier has many catagories where you can study Islam.
This may seem a bit irrelevant to you but I suggest that before you make known that you're a Muslim, please study Islam because once you tell people you've converted, they may end up trying to convince you to leave. No matter how much you think you know, some things they say may confuse you. Spend time reading about essential subjects in Islam and learn from reliable sites like islamqa.info. Work on building your imaan so nothing will shake your belief in Allah.
Also, when they pray to Jesus and their saints, pray to the true God.
Importance of prayer The - https://islamqa.info/en/12305
To Perform Salah How (Prayer) !: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL85A0EC87D924601C
Times prayer - https://salah.com & https://islamqa.info/en/9940
May Allah keep you steadfast
EDIT: Also, your situation is somewhat similar to Elisa's so please read the comments that she recieved. You can do this by using the tool on your browser called "find on page" and just type in the name Elisa.
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Has become Muslim She and is asking how she shouldnt by tell her Parents- https://islamqa.info/en/33827
Importance of prayer The - https://islamqa.info/en/12305
To Perform Salah How (Prayer) !: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL85A0EC87D924601C
Times prayer - https://salah.com & https://islamqa.info/en/9940
May Allah keep you steadfast