I want to kill my parents, please help
Assalamualaikum...
Sorry, I am not good in English. I am a student in institute in my country in Asia with GPA 3,6. Until 3 months ago, I very want to kill my parents. 3 months ago I know it is very wrong so I stopped to study there because the reason I study there is to know how to kill my parents and destroy my country.
Until now I try to forgotten to kill my parents, but I can't. Now I very much need help from some one to forgot that. I think I will forgot that if I go in my country to study at other country. But I don't have any money to do that. So I need help from muslim people because I want to study about islam when I study. If you need other information you can contact me at *******@gmail.com (email address removed by editor)
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Salaam imron.
I do not understand where studying comes into killing your parents but I strongly advise you to seek help. These feelings are not normal brother. It may be that you have a psychological condition which needs addressing. And without medication you may be dangerous. I advise you to see your doctor IMMEDIATELY. Tell him what you are feeling. If your doctor does not give you help go to the police. Do NOT give in to such urges, they will only cause you sin and regret. Go and get help brother.
Please write onhere to update us on your situation
Sara
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brother
How can anyone who wants to kill thier parents and be obessed wih destruction have the desire to seek knowledge? You seem to have an obession. I think you should talk to people close to you about your illness and ask for thier help. Either that or you're lying so that people give you money to go aboard! In which case you are very elaborate in your design just to secure help from geniue muslims.
My advice to you is talk to someone. Counselling from professionals will help you insha-allah and if you are geniue then Allah will help you to achieve your dream of studying/
Brother go to your nearest police station and tell them what you have writ here and feel insha'Allah they will get you the help you need.
NO sane human being wants to kill their parents, whatever evil they may have committed. As everyone has stated you need to speak to a very very experienced councillor, someone who's dealth with serious criminals.
Asalam alaikoum
I am so sorry to hear that you are having these awful feelings. It must be very frightening for you. You do not sya where you live, but I would strongly recommend that you go to your nearest emergency room. They should have a team of qualified people who are experienced in these matters who will be able to help you and keep you safe. I work in psychiatry in the UK and have experience of treating young people with your problem. Please don't be scared. Once you ask for help, you will start to feel better very soon insha'allah
In the meantime, I will make dua'a for you
salam
Salaam, I agree with Laila. What your experiencing can be very frightening and it does sound like the symptoms of a psychiatric disorder. Don;t sit and wait, go and see a doctor or take yourself to the emergency deparment ASAP and ask for help! There will be staff trained who help people in situations like yours.
Keep us posted!
Every one has given the right advise but I want to know what makes you feel in that way?
the desire that arises every time I hear or see a fight, sort of a recollection of the past arise that give rise to a desire to kill my parents. at first my reason for college is to find ways to kill without being known by others and make his death as natural death. I've tried to discuss it with others but that did not work because I do not have friends who can trust other than that I also can not trust the authorities that exist in my country including the police. I intend to find someone who can be invited to share that can help me to forget it, because until now I have never put my problem to people who are around me because of trauma in childhood.
I describe here with the intention to get feedback and assure my self of what I would do to forget it. I am willing to provide further information if the need in case of a two-way conversation.
Brother imron,
I am sorry I am no one to judge you. You might or are suffering from a psychological disorder. If that is the case please get it checked Asap. However, I apologize if I am thinking wrong or if my words sounds hurtful but who wants to kill their parents. Parents are a blessing. Ask them who have lost their parents. Howa person feel in such circumstances.
Also, I am no one to judge but your words seems to be suspicious. You said you dont know proper English. However, your last reply seems to be in perfect English.
Please, brother if this is a joke then stop it here. We shouldn't waste people time.. Because their time is precious and will be valuable to others who are in genuine need/help.
If I am wrong then I Would recommend you to get a professional help. Who wants to kill their parents? Those parents who have brought you in this world, cared for you and made you this big.. That now you think of killing them. Think about it. I pray you will better and get rid of such thoughts.
May Allah (swt) helps you to overcome this situation. Ameen
Wa alaykum as salam, brother Imron,
I understand you feel fear of publicly declaring your nightmares and being punished for it, instead of being taken care of. But if you feel you can lose control, better to be under medication than damaging anyone, Allah (swt)forbids.
I support what everyone has said and I will give you more choices to look at, if you have a good chikung- acupuncture doctor in your place, or close by, you won´t have to tell him what is wrong, and if they insist you can tell them you have undesirable thoughts due to painful memories and you want to get rid of them, insha´allah, they will see where your imbalance is and will help you, insha´Allah.
To practice Chikung, to follow a healthy diet, will help you to mantain control, but consider seriously the fact of receiving therapy to heal, if meanwhile for a single minute you see you can lose it, go as fast as you can to the emergency room of the closest hospital you have to ask for help, you don´t want to put anyone´s life on risk, Allah(swt) forbids.
You can pray Allah(swt) to help you to forget, you can say something like: ""Oh, Allah(swt) please take all the painful memories that are provoking this thoughts away from me and heal them, release me and the others of the suffering they can cause, please guide me to the straight Path, forgive me and help me to forgive, in You(swt) I find Peace. Ameen."
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Please, take care of yourself to be able to take care of others, insha´Allah. I will do my best for your best, insha´Allah.
María
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Allah(swt) knows best.
María
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Imron, wa alaykum as-salam,
You need to get professional psychological help right away. What you are feeling is not normal and is dangerous. You may be suffering from schizophrenia or some other illness that can be treated with the proper medication.
No matter what trauma you experienced in childhood, harming your parents in any way is a terrible sin, a crime against Allah, and a crime against humanity. You must never contemplate such a thing.
Please get help. May Allah guide you and show you the way to the light.
Wael
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Imron
I understand your fears and concerns, and people do report feeling isolated and are unable to trust whislt experiencing feelings of this nature. From what you say, it seems to be that you have what we refer to as 'insight' which is a good thing. This means you recognise there is something wrong. However, you mention that you have experienced trauma in your childhood which may relate to how you are feeling now. You need to speak to a doctor and would strongly suggest you do this as soon as possible. Maybe there is another member of your family who you trust that could accompany you. Either way, you need support.
You are in my thoughts and prayers
Salam
Imron,
You may be suffering from a psychological illness, but you may also be suffering from something darker. If you can get into contact with a very pious and respectable Alim, find them and explain to them exactly what's happening. Best just to make sure it's not something like possession or magic. You are in my prayers,
Rupert
I want to kill my parents they treated me badly for a whole year. Called me bad names behind my back and they call me stupid and retarted which that hurt my feelings. And they dont care my feeling only thier own they never once been nice to me either. Father even say he hates for me wish someone kill them oh thier worst parent to i think they need help have anger problems . They get angry over stupid stuff that is not important.
None99, it's too bad that your parents have not been kind to you. Forget about these ideas of harming them, astaghfirullah. Do not doom yourself to Hell. Instead just be patient. If you are old enough to get a job and live on your own, then do so, and go on and live your life. If not, then focus on your school work, and when you are old enough then move out and support yourself.
Maybe when you are older you can learn to forgive your parents. They are human beings and make mistakes, just as well all do. You also have anger issues, and I hope you will find a way to work on that Insha'Allah, because you need to get rid of these violent desires and thoughts, they are poison to your soul.
Wael
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