Tag Archive for ‘depression’
Trapped by depression
Everyone thinks I’m a strong person and I have been trying to be, but I just feel trapped
Pregnant and alone
When I can’t take it anymore I pray to Allah that I don’t want jannah because I can’t take this suffering. I don’t know what to do. Every ounce of my strength is gone.
Suffering from Depression and Anxiety
My anxiety and depression get worse and worse with each passing day. I feel like I am dead inside.
I don’t want to be here anymore
I’m not sure if this is what being suicidal feels like… I want to commit suicide after I finish high school.
Lost and losing faith
This is my last year of high school. My mother prefers my brothers over me, which is odd because I’ve always been there for her, and comfort her and almost never disobeyed her. Yet my brothers do worse. I don’t have a relationship with my family. I feel alone, all the time. Yes I pray, fast, etc yet I feel empty. I used to feel full of faith, but now I feel nothing and it breaks my heart because I love Allah and I want him to love me.
Desires vs. society
Others might not be bothered delaying nikah in the desi society, but some have strong desires and since I’m one of them, why should I suffer? Some portray marriage as such a complex thing, as if it’s no different than being jailed. Now I’m 22, don’t watch porn, wish to stay away from fitna, sport a sunnah beard, and offer my prayers. But every so often when I get depressed, I just can’t help but please myself.
Where are my duas going?
Yesterday I came to know that I did not get selected for the defense forces due to unknown reasons. Can you only imagine how I feel right now? Can you only imagine? Can you imagine how intense waswasas of shaytan I am fighting now regarding my Iman and trust on Allah and duas?
His Mom has already selected another girl for him!
I had a teacher who from the very first day started staring at me and also stalking me at times. I started having feeling for him too. He talked to his mother about me… she has already decided upon a girl for him. He says that he will try to convince his mom… but I don’t see him trying at all…
Losing the marriage after zina
Suddenly he said his parents do not agree, but before saying this (about 10 days ago) we met. Even though we only met twice in this whole 1 year, the last time we met we committed zina/sex because we thought we would be marrying. I know we commited a sin, and since then I’m seeking forgivness from Allah.
My mother’s abuse is breaking me down
These recent events, along with many years of verbal, mental, and harsh physical abuse are causing a breakdown within myself. I broke last during one of my mother’s rants, and unintentionally swore at her after she hit me. I did not mean to, and repented that night in hopes of Allah’s forgiveness.
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