please show me the right path
I really need some help. I really want to convert, I feel it in my heart Islam is where I belong. I love everything from the home to relationships with others. I love that the Qu'ran teaches us, guides us to not be led astray in this world of sin and disbelief.
I want so much to convert but I'm scared. I don't want to convert and do something without proper knowledge that will be Harram. As I also said in my previous posts, any mosque I went to turned me away without hearing anything I had to say. Is it because I am asking to see the sheik? Does anyone know anywhere in Toronto, Canada where I can be accepted to go in and speak to a Sheik and convert?
I feel very sad that I am being judged before anyone takes the time to hear anything I have to say. Maybe I'm doing something wrong? I asked my husband to come with me to convert and he says Inshallah, and then when he is upset with me another time he tells me I am not worthy to be Muslim, and he will be ashamed to take me to convert.
Can anyone tell me what I can do myself?
-soon2convert
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Salam,
Do not let anyone discourage you from converting! Mashallah i am really impressed with ur mode of thinking. I have no idea why the mosque turned u away?! It upsets me because that is not how u should be treated. And why would ur husband turn u away from converting as well? Is there a reason? Anyways that should not matter, follow ur heart and may Allah grant u patience and plenty of rewards 🙂
MashAllah ( It is what Allah wills) that you have the urge to come to Islam. I pray to Allah to make the path to him Easy. Please try to find some sister who are going to the mosque and befriend them and get to know more about Islam and fully understand that it is the greatest freedom from this evil world. If you truly believe in Allah and want to obey him , then you can but know that you will have to make alot of changes in your life . At first it will be very hard but Allah is the most forgiving most merciful, so Inshallah may he make it easy for you.
To become a muslim all you need to do is take a shower , washing your whole body including rinse mouth and nose. Then you believe in your heart and recite Ashhadu Ana Lah ilaha ilalah washaduana muhamadan rasulahh ( I bear witness that there is no diety worthy of worship except Allah and mohamed is his messenger 3 times. Preferably do this with another muslim woman.
And believe in Allah and his angels ( Gabrial , Mikaal, Israfil (angel of death) , his books ( quran, bible, torah , and pslams of david ) are the words of god, his messengers and the day of judgement will happen and that fate of good and bad in life comes from Allah .
to convert all you need to say is I know believe and declare that noone is god but Allah and the prophet Mohammad is the messanger of Allah. you must utter this and believe it in the heart. And now you are a Muslim. this is the testification of faith. Sister do not delay converting. doors will open. if you can please msg me I can direct you to start learning Islam from and connecting with people in Toronto, I know many close friends there.
Saying the testification of faith is the first ting you should do sister, do not delay. you can say it in English, it doesn't have to be in Arabic if you are not a Arabic speaker. also you do not need to wait and say it at the mosque. I know a story of a man who wanted to become Muslim and people told him to go take a shower and drive to the mosque, he delayed saying the testification of faith, and he slipped in the shower hit his head and died. He died before he become Muslim. People need to be wise. The scholars of Islam said if a person wants to become Muslim to say the testification of faith and believe it in the heart without delay.
(I know believe and declare that noone deserves to be worship but Allah and prophet Mohammad is the messenger of Allah"
May you be surrounded with the peace, blessings, and guidance of The Almighty Allah!
It looks like you and your husband are Muslims already, but the only thing left is to just say the Shahada, which is to testify (within your heart and on your lips) that there is no God except only One God, and that Muhammad is a messenger of God.
You really don't need a special Sheik to covert you, though you may need some guidance about how you make the special bathing and the ablution, and about how you pray and the rulings. However, you may learn some basic things from Islamic websites for new Muslims (and I am sure you will get many of such sites from other brothers and sisters who are going to be responding to you here), you can also learn how to cover yourself in the Islamic way (through YouTube) and then find some Muslim sisters and be friends with them (your husband can also find Muslim brothers and be friends with them).
Also, examine yourself and see your past characters and see what Islam accept and don't accept from them, and then follow the guidance of Islam in them.
If you want to learn how to say the Shahada, please watch this YouTube video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJPVkVevicI
In the end, I welcome both you and your Husband to Islam, stay blessed and may Allah help you!!!
I did not even realize you meant that, your husband is a Muslim already. If there is something you do and he thinks you are not worthy of becoming a Muslim, isn't this the right time for him to assist you become a Muslim and then help you learn more to live a better life??!
ASSALAMALAIKUM-
SORRY TO HEAR YR STORY IT IS THE DUTY OF ALL TO COME FORWARD TO STAND BY YOU IN HTIS VERY SMALL PROCESS OF JUST 2 MINUTES WHICH WILL CNACEL THE SINS AND THE AMAL[SCROLL OF DEEDS] OF YOUR PAST LIKE A NEW BORN BABY STARTS A NEW LIFE LIKE THAT-
I want so much to convert but I'm scared. I don't want to convert and do something without proper knowledge that will be Harram. NOTHING TO WORRY YOU ARE DEDICATED NOTHING WONG WILL HAPPEN BY YOU JUST GO AHEAD -
ANY MUSLIM WHOM U KNOW CAN LISTEN TO YOU WHEN YOU SAY LA ILAHA ILALAH MUHAMMADADUR RASOOL ALLAH-I BEAR WITNESS THAT THERE IS NO GOD EXCEPT ONE GOD[ALLAH[AND MUHAMMAD SALAHAUALAHAIWASALAM IS THE MESSENGER OF ALLAH-
IT IS NOT COMPULSORY YOU GO TO A SHEKH OR IMAM OF A MOSQUE-IT IS NOT COMPULSORY-ONLY AND IMAM OR SHEIKH SHOULD TESTIFY WHEN YOU READ THE KALIMA-
REGARDS
Assalamu Aleikom Sister
I am not really surprised your husband would say such a thing to you. It's so upsetting and shouldn't happen but does happen(SOMETIMES) with new converts married to born Muslims! Perhaps you need to sit with him at a time of ease and really talk to him from your heart.
I have heard of some men--who marry Christians or new converts--getting upset when their wives decide to convert or start to really learn and practice Islam. A scholar I learn from said it stems from their own insecurities when it comes to their religion and how they practice it...that perhaps they're not doing exactly what they're supposed to be or they're doing things, but have to idea why they're doing it because it was just something they learned while young, or they feel ashamed because they cannot answer your questions regarding certain things(given they're born Muslims)
When the wives start learning their religion and start questioning them, the way they practice it, what they do and don't do, when the wives start siphoning out the culture parts to get to the real Islam, some men will often feel very insecure and defensive. I know of women who have divorced their husband's because they became so difficult to live with once the women themselves started to really practice the sunnah. It's sad but it happens. Perhaps your husband, in his bouts of anger, is just feeling a little insecure and needs to be reassured that you are not there to judge or condemn him but instead are wishing to learn and grow as a Muslim with his guidance. I would suggest to take slow steps in this situation. Find out from a local masjid if they offer classes for women--there must be one around you...if not one, then try another and inshaAllah you will find it. Once you become involved and with the guidance of other Sister's you can learn of other talks that the masjid's have and invite your husband to come along with you.
I think you may need to be very proactive and go at this on your own for now if he is showing these signs of resistance. I don't believe he really means what he has said and those words are coming from some other place for some other reason. Just show him how serious you are. You do not need him to take Shahada. You can do this on your own. Just be proactive. Start practicing and learning as much as you can and then gently encourage him to help or join you. I think if he doesn't let his own insecurities get the best of him, all will be okay inshaAllah. However, if he starts to resist more and discourage more, that is something that you will definitely need help with and getting involved with a masjid will give you access to an Imam who knows you and your situation and will help you in this case. Islam should be your focal point and you need no one to convert you....that is on you my dear.
May Allah make it easy for you.
Try Sayeda Kadija Center. I used to go to this one, its in Mississauga though. Idk where in Toronto you are from and if you drive but when I lived in Etobicoke it wasn't that far of a travel, I use to take the bus as well.
7150 Edwards Blvd.
Mississauga, ON
L5S 1Z1
Tel: 905.564.5509
The people there are so amazing, Masha'Allah and the Imam is very good as well. I have spoken to him a few times. I don't think anyone there is gonna turn you away, Insha'Allah. They also have lots of courses there as well. They also have Halaqs every Friday nights and stuff. I loved this center, sadly I moved.
U r already a muslim sister cause u have accepted islam in ur heart
Salam sister,
Masha'Allah I'm glad to hear that. All you need to do is declare your shahada which is "I bare witness that theres no diety worthy of worship but Allah , and i bare witness that Muhammad is his slave and massanger" & Since I live in Toronto too , Scarborough particularly , I recommend you to go to Salahdiin Mosque (it's in Eglinton and Kennedy) , you can contact me And insha'Allah I will arrange an appointment with the Imaam of the mosque.
Hope to here from you soon!!