Stress 
Lifelong masturbation and porn addiction has left me feeling suicidal(4)
I got introduced to the concept of masturbation and sex when i was 10 years old. I am 28 now and I am going through an existential crises. I dont understand the purpose of my life anymore.
I think I am committing shirk, I’ve become an addict too
I’ve tried praying salah. Every time I pray, something bad happens, or I get very lazy and I hear voices in my head. I listen to Quran with headphones sometimes, but lately I’m in a very bad mood. I’m angry that I can’t leave this relationship and save myself.
My father sexually abused me and ruined my life
I realized that I would never be able to have contact with a man, since I cringed at every touch. My father ruined everything for me, and I was really disgusted. I just faked it, since I could not and was not allowed to tell my husband what happened in my past (My mom insisted on it, she said that if that came out me, my father would be viewed a certain way by people).
Drowning in sins
gave up on Allah and committed a lot of sins. One of these sins was stealing. At my work I could steal a lot, from clothes to makeup and even money. No one ever knew that things were missing, so it was very easy for me to do.