Forgiveness 
I wanted to overlook his bad past(4)
I wasn’t planning on judging him for mistakes he made in the past, but when I started to get to know him better, I realized that he wasn’t really the person I thought he was when I first met him. I still decided that I wanted to be with him in hope that he’d change.
My confession and call for help
I feel horrible. Disgusting. I want to go back to God, I feel so bad. I cry at night, I can’t sleep, I can’t live with myself. I don’t know how fix this. I want to go back to God, but because my faith in my Deen has been lacking, I keep getting influenced into bad things. I always let my drive for physical love get to me.
I want to kill myself, I have been texting another woman
My current wife read a text from this woman who said how she felt about me. Now that she saw it, she said that she doesn’t trust me or respect me. I don’t blame her, but I feel terrible about it because I know I hurt her, and she is now talking divorce. It has been almost 2 weeks and we haven’t been talking much.
Regretful and feeling lost after doing something very awful
I want to raise my child islamically but I want to marry the man that I was supposed to.