Forgiveness 
I lied to my family, but the truth would destroy them(7)
I know that if my family found out the truth, it’d hurt them, anger them, lead them to hate me or even hurt me, and could destroy my family and bring shame and embarrassment onto them and me.
I love my husband, but I cheated on him
I have been EXTREMELY happily married for 14 years, and have 2 children. We have been the kind of mushy couple that is always asked if we’re honeymooners. We are best friends! But I recently cheated on my husband. I didn’t get any satisfaction out of it, it was purely for the other person.
I wanted to overlook his bad past
I wasn’t planning on judging him for mistakes he made in the past, but when I started to get to know him better, I realized that he wasn’t really the person I thought he was when I first met him. I still decided that I wanted to be with him in hope that he’d change.
My confession and call for help
I feel horrible. Disgusting. I want to go back to God, I feel so bad. I cry at night, I can’t sleep, I can’t live with myself. I don’t know how fix this. I want to go back to God, but because my faith in my Deen has been lacking, I keep getting influenced into bad things. I always let my drive for physical love get to me.