I can’t find a good Muslim man anywhere
My last post was a plea for help regarding a prospect for marriage -- that didn't work out because of his family's prejudice towards other nationalities.
Since that point of time, I've been determined to get my mind back in the game. I looked to other outlets to let out my pain and turn it into motivation and ambition as I usually do. I feel that even though I barely ever turn that toward progressing in my Deen in terms of prayer, I believe Allah (SWT) is behind me and I contemplate about religion every day of my life.
I feel hopeless in that I simply do not attract Muslim men, or Muslim men my family will approve of at least. I attract educated and polite men.. usually of the Catholic faith. One Catholic man even asked my father for my hand in marriage. I have not attracted a Muslim man.
My parents claim to give me the right to choose my spouse as long as he is a "good Muslim, educated, of good family and good character" but maybe it's just become too hard to find that?
Not to boast, but I have accomplished far in comparison to my peers, will graduate in the near future with two degrees (insha'Allah), chaste and cultured. I clean and cook, but the former is a struggle to do on a daily basis as I study and work at the same time and live with my family (which make more of a mess than I can clean after during the weekdays). I try to get out more often to keep my mind off of the fact I am lonely. When I do pray, I ask Allah (SWT) for a guided husband.
I have my faults, but it seems they are becoming worse as I feel lonelier as days pass. Indeed, marriage is half of the religion.
What should I do? If a female makes it obvious she is looking, it is culturally frowned upon and will ruin my chances of marriage. I do not wish to resort to online dating, as a lot of it is easy to conceal identities and leads to a lot of problems. I am becoming tempted by a few of these non-Muslim men, who are not ill-mannered or disrespectful, but have actually held themselves away from me because they do feel attraction but respect that we are of different religions -- which I stood ground and expressed that it will not work based on that criteria.
I feel that men these days have lost their quality, many are cowards.. I have become resentful to the male race, however 100% heterosexual (for those who doubt, haha).
Any and all advice would be appreciated!
- Anonymous Blogger