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Asalam o Alaikum.

i married a man three years back, and that was without my parents consent. later on they forgave me and brought me back. somebody said that a nikkah without wali is "baatil". so my parents did a brand new nikkah with him again. this time my family elders were included and informed. My parents almost had no contact with me after that becuase they were not happy with it. Allah Taala did not grant me with a child during those two years. i was really upset and i thought that may be Allah is not happy with me because i've hurt my parents.

1 year back, i came home and asked my parents to forgive me. they said if you really want us to forgive and forget then leave your husband asap. i was very much depressed and upset, i decided to leave him. i signed for khula a week later the day i came back home. 1 month passed and my husband called me to meet one last time because he wanted me to take back khula. i obviously loved him the same way, but i was upset because of my parents. That day i don't know how but we became close just like husband wife. i came back home thinking about what have i done. 2 weeks later, the situation became same. i met him and we shared private moments again, and he constantly was telling me that i should come back. now 1 year have passed and we still talk and love each other. but havn't met.

My khula is finalised in court. I'm confused am i his wife or not because somebody told me that if you do intercourse within 3 months and with mutual consent, then the khula becomes null. was that zina which i did a year back? am i still his wife? are we haram for eachother?

meerab