Any wazifa or dua for my situation?
aslam.. I am in trouble, big trouble.
I live in hostel. I love a guy here who was my friend's ex. She ditched him. Since then I came to know about him. He is too nice.
My liking and now love has increased day by day for him. He is a converted muslim not because of my friend.
My friend is marrying now. I told him about my feelings. He always makes me feel he likes me too but cannot marry because of past and his path is difficult. He once told he wants to marry muslim girl.
The thought scares me that once he goes home people will start brain-washing him and deviate him back. He gets influenced I know that.
I know this is the best deed I can do if I can preserve him, love him, make him understand.
I find my feelings with a reason behind. I got a kind of message from a godly man at home but I stopped because I couldn't listen, I knew he knowed well.
Since then my vulnerability has increased more. What shall I do? I cry whole nights, it hurts me a lot. Please help me... I know this is big. I can't now talk to boys I feel so occupied. Please help.
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W/salam
Listen sister you say that you love this guy whos converted to Islam, that's good that his Islamic. You say sister that he can not marry you because his path is difficult, yes maybe it's true, bless him. You say that he once said he wanted a Muslim wife, well that's good too.
Have you ever thought of just being his friend like just a friend, without you making him love you, maybe he doesn't want to love you because love isn't something that can be forced, maybe he still have feelings for your friend who dumped him.
Can you please look deeply at what your doing and stop, think about your life please.
Trying to make someone love you is crazy. Yout say his a nice guy so please don't take him for granted, let him be alone and sort out his inner thoughts and decide what he wants in life. If he has true islam in him then he won't go back to whatever he was previously, Love of Islam is very strong if truly his studied islam he will no never to get brainwashed. Islam is the rightful religion and he will know that. One cannot force islam on no one. Allah bless him with islam and also let him find his way through this rightful path,Amen.
You my sister should take a step back one day you will find someone who will feel the same way you feel about them, please just read to Allah for guiding you on the right path, love cannot be brought neither forced.
Please try and make a mends with your parents because they sure will be worried about you, your safety. One day little sister insha Allah your will be blessed with a good decent loving husband who will love you the way you love him. One day you will have children and love them dearly because they will mean the world to you, just like you mean the world to your parents.
Stay blessed sister and in your duas ask Allah to give you a the love of a person who brings you more closer to islam someone who loves you for what you are, insha Allah your dua will be heard please please make up with your parents, there are people who don't have parents and just want a parent figure in their life, life is too short to play around with, one day you will look back and think gosh years have gone past by so quickly.
Take care of yourself and please remember one cannot make someone love them, love comes naturally. .
A.h
Assalaamu Alaykum,
I want to caution you, sister, because your logic may be misleading you.
You said "I know this is the best deed I can do if I can preserve him, love him, make him understand". Sister, it is not your responsibility to lead this man, to "preserve" him, or do anything of that sort for him. It is Allah alone who guided him to Islam, and it is Allah alone who is the preserver of this man's iman and path to his Lord. We cannot take that credit, we are not lords. We are slaves to the Almighty, and whatever we do to benefit another in this life is because Allah allowed us that blessing and reward in shaa Allah.
You also said "The thought scares me that once he goes home people will start brain-washing him and deviate him back. He gets influenced I know that." You're basically saying that he's easily influenced. He is not strong, and cannot stick to his convictions when tempted by others. Allahu alim, maybe this is so, maybe it's not. The truth is, we can't know the hearts of others. We aren't supposed to try to predict what they will or won't do with their faith or deeds. We can only observe what one does in a moment, and respond to that.
But the more important thing here is that, if it's true that he is challenged with maintaining his deen, this is probably not a good thing for you in terms of marriage. Clearly you have feelings for him, and you want to go forward with him into something romantic, but I can assure you that you don't want to marry someone who is not stronger than you, or who you cannot rely on to remain steadfast in the face of fitna and others attempting to get them off their path. As a woman, you deserve and need a man who is strong, committed, and unwavering in faith. It's not better for you to be the leader, the protector, the strong one spiritually in a marriage. That is a man's role and duty, and if you are seeking a marriage to be that one instead- it's going to only cause problems down the road.
So I suggest, sister, that you consider these points and move in the direction of detaching from him. Don't even try to be "just friends" with him, there really is no beneficial place for you in that now that your feelings have come to where they are for him. There is nothing wrong with wanting to get married, but it's definitely adviseable that you put more thought into the kind of man who would be the best husband for you and take care of you as you deserve and as pleases Allah. I also suggest you do some soul searching into your desire to be a 'savior' to another, and reflect on how that is an unhealthy basis to begin a relationship with.
-Amy
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OP: My liking and now love has increased day by day for him. He is a converted muslim not because of my friend.
.......My friend is marrying now. I told him about my feelings. He always makes me feel he likes me too but cannot marry because of past and his path is difficult. He once told he wants to marry muslim girl.
He can't marry you and wants your friendship..... that is a danger signal. This friendship could easily turn into sexual relationship. He is non-mehram to you. He wants to marry a Muslim girl and that girl is not you.
may be he dont like you. so why you are wasting your time running after him.