I sent him nude photos and can’t live with the guilt
Assalamualaikum,
I am a 20-year-old girl. When I was in college, I was in a relationship with a guy and we both loved each other so much....we were together for one-and-a-half year. Sometimes we used to talk about sexual stuff, but in April, I committeed the biggest sin of my life.
While we were talking about sex, he asked me to send him my nude photos. I didn’t want to do it at first. Days went by and he again asked me for them. I was so in the mood now that, without thinking, I gave him my one picture (not showing my face). I then immediately deleted it and he said "let's not do this anymore." We realised that it wasn't good and he said he didn’t save the picture. He also sent me his nudes, even though I'd never asked him for them and promptly deleted the pictures.
We never talked about these things anymore. After one week we broke up, but for another reason. But I kept feeling guilty for what I did, so I texted him and told him to delete the picture I sent him. He said he deleted them long ago and that he will never ever disappoint me and told me to not worry.
I was relieved but ever since I did this thing, I keep feeling guilty for it every single day and keep feeling like I'm not a good person. I've never done anything like this, ever before in my life. I prayed to Allah swt to forgive me for my sin and to keep me distant from any kind of sin in the future. I know Allah will forgive me inshallah but I can't stop feeling guilty. I can't live with this guilt and I have to forget it and move forward with my life, but I just can't.
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It's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed with guilt right now, but it's important to remember that you're not defined by your mistakes. We all make choices that we regret, but what truly matters is how we learn and grow from them.
Firstly, it's commendable that you took responsibility for your actions by reaching out to him and asking him to delete the picture. That shows maturity and a desire to rectify the situation. Additionally, his reassurance that he deleted the picture should provide you with some comfort.
Remember, seeking forgiveness is an integral part of our faith. Allah (SWT) is indeed the most merciful and forgiving. Trust in His mercy and forgiveness. Keep praying and seeking His forgiveness sincerely, and have faith that He will forgive you. It's important to acknowledge your mistake, seek forgiveness, and strive to avoid repeating it in the future.
Focus on your personal growth and the positive aspects of yourself. You are more than this one mistake. Surround yourself with supportive friends and family who uplift you and remind you of your worth.
Every day is an opportunity for a fresh start. Try to forgive yourself, learn from this experience, and use it as a stepping stone towards becoming a stronger and more resilient person. You have the strength within you to overcome this guilt and move forward with your life. Trust in Allah's mercy, seek His forgiveness, and believe in your ability to grow and thrive. Allah maaf karne wala hai, Allah pe bharosa rakho, maafi mango, aur bhool jao.